you catch me looking
what? you say
– nothing.

you stare
tell me it's okay.
say it

and I want to, but what would I say?

that yes.
I do
want you to fuck me.
yes.
I want you to fuck me like it's the last sex you'll ever have
like the world is falling to pieces and our love is
the only thing that can save it
like you'll run out of breath if you stop kissing me
biting me
like the fire between our bodies is the very spark that
set creation in motion

drink me
like I'm the best thing you've ever tasted
like mine are the only waters left

I want you to fuck me like it's our salvation.
to play my moans like your favourite song
to make a symphony of me
play my body like a dub riddim
fingers stroking every note
skin against skin
love me like kette
and djembe
love me drum and bass
waists wining
vibrating

doh stop yet
I want you to choke me
let me show you how much I trust you
watch my eyes roll back
then breathe me back to life

fuck me bones against concrete walls
bare ass on counter tops
hands tied
fuck me like 90s dancehall

raw
uncensored
rough

loud
like rebellion
like we alone can destroy the patriarchy
fuck me with meaning
like our black and gold is beautiful
enough to end colourism
fuck me fast
like all our demons are chasing us
then slow
like brown rizzla
or ackee opening
or honey

fuck.

love me.
love me soft
love me cotton and silk kisses
'til you cover every inch of me
with the ganja on your lips
cohiba roots like vines across my flesh
love me smoke and gasping breath
love me like you came
to learn new languages
leave you speaking in tongues
licking, tasting
every
single
drip
don't waste
a
drop
leave me
digging
nails into sheets
and flesh
hands in your hair
summoning seasons and gods
with these chords
as I tremble

love me in earthquakes
lightning
and hurricanes

then calm
we enter the eye
mine open and mek four
with yours

this. is what I want.
this. and more still

as I look at you
lay you on your back
and show you all the ways I'd like to
return the favour
the exact. same. way.

can't you see it in my eyes?

the ways I want to
love you holy
like white rum

anoint all the neglected
parts of your heart
body
spirit

love you in harmony
sigh simultaneous
make you moan melodically
make the neighbours jealous

of us
inside each other

fuck.

I want to
love you.

but I can't say this,
can I?

say it.
you say

I wrote (you) a poem
I reply